I’m en route to Dubai and from there to Kampala as I write this blog. Those of you who regularly follow my blogs you’ll know that I’m on my way to volunteer with homeless children and to train/ coach shelter staff with Retrak charity and other likeminded HR/ L&D volunteers. I’m with the Manchester lot on this flight, and those flying from London will meet us in Dubai.
It’s hard to describe the full spectrum of emotions we’re all experiencing on this flight. We’re excited, nervous, emotional and in many ways this still feels very surreal.
It’s been a long fundraising journey for all of us and between us we’ve raised nearly £19k to help improve the lives of homeless children and hopefully to find them loving and supporting homes and families. I can’t imagine being where I am today without the support of my family, they’re my support and my inspiration (that’s us, the Cowells in the featured pic!).
To raise money I’ve done a 6 hour sponsored spinathon, a car boot sale, a pub quiz, numerous raffles and my parents have bullied everyone they’ve bumped into, in to donating. The other guys have done all sorts – 10k runs, sponsored walks, fashion shows – you name it and they’ve done it.
I must say though that I also feel guilty – I feel like I could be bringing more money, or more items for the children, or have in some way got the word out about this fantastic charity in a greater way. I feel nervous. I’ve put myself forward to be chief sports coordinator (self appointed title) and I’m planning on running around with the kids, playing football, basketball, organising a sports day – anything! What if the kids don’t like me? What if I can’t control my emotions and I allow myself to be overwhelmed?
That is, of course, my typical perfectionistic response to any situation (I could have done better and what if I don’t perform as well as I should?). However, despite these anxieties I know I’m going to leave Kampala feeling proud. I know in my heart I’ve tried my best and will continue to try my best and the rational part of my brain knows that, that is all anyone can reasonably ask of themselves.
I also want to take this opportunity to thank all of you who have donated, supported and cared. I feel truly overwhelmed by your love and kindness.